A Blog For Thoughts

 Dear A-Blog-For-Thoughts, This is an apology letter. It has been over 5 years since I have posted on this blog. I never really said Goodbye to the blog, nor did I have a reason not to post anymore. I just stopped.  Around the time I stopped posting, a lot was going on. I had experienced my first ever heartbreak. If you recall, I was in a long distance relationship back then, and that, unfortunately, failed. That was the start of a very weird few years. I had deliberated during the Covid-19 pandemic whether I should start blogging again - just to fill my time, but I didn't really want to drag everyone down. The pandemic really affected my mental health, but it was because I was stuck in a household with people that severely affected my mental wellbeing. The pandemic in itself was a much needed break from the busy life I had going on of Full Time Social Work Student, and part time waitress.  I know that in the past my blog somewhat book-based, with the occasional Lush post...

Goodbye, 2017. This year was probably one of the best years of my life. I am not joking. I have been through a lot of good things this year. I went out and got what I wanted. I have had a few boy related downs that I do not regret one bit. How can you regret a lesson? As part of my personal growth, I have reached a few minor achievements that sent me over the moon. I managed to open a bottle of wine.This might be a simple task for many people, but for some reason I was always defeated by a bottle and its cork. But this year, I have successfully opened a bottle of wine. In fact, I did it multiple times. Unfortunately these occasions were for other people, and not opening wine for me. That's the waitress life.  This girl sat with a plate full of sushi in front of her, and refused to eat it unless she could hold and lift it with chopsticks. My sushi went cold, but I succeeded.  I have always lived a sheltered life where I always have someone, to some extent, tak...

Let me introduce you to V.  V is a 31 year old man. He has a wife, and he has two kids. V comes from a country whose culture I don't understand. When he first started working with us, I thought he was coming on too strong; like with his jokes and all. However, my friend told me that maybe that's their way of being friends. So, I let my guard down and allowed him to walk me home one night. So far so good. One day, a few days after my breakup, I find myself stranded in the town where my ex lived because my friend decided to ditch me last second. I was worried about being there alone, and I didn’t have time to go home and go back to work (since I worked in that town). So, I texted V because he had been telling me we should hang out outside of work. We met at McDonald's because that is where I was sat. He sits directly next to me and starts to stroke my thigh. And being very dominant, and he was just not taking no for an answer. Luckily for me though, h...

The title of this post sounds like I'm about to go on a huge rant about all the guys wanting me. *Queue OMG by Little Mix* When I was younger, I was always jealous of my best friend because she used to have all of the attention from guys. She was never single. Everyone wanted her. Then there was me suffering from Trichotillomania, having bald patches, and being considered ugly. I never got male attention when I was younger. I even used to post photos online of me with a wig as an attempt to get guys to notice me. My self-esteem was at an all-time low. Flashforward 6 years…I have grown my hair. The simple fact that I have grown my hair meant that I had more self-esteem. I walked the streets with confidence, not with fear of judging eyes. But being considered confident and beautiful by the society around meant that I got male attention. At first, I was over the moon- like I had achieved a goal. But to males that I got attention from, I wasn't beautiful. I w...

This nightmare started at the age of 10.   If you have been reading my blog or following me on Twitter, then you know that I have Trichotillomania. To this day, we're not sure what triggered my mind to start pulling my hair. The best guess we have is that I went through some emotional turmoil at the age of 10 that may have stressed me out too much: My best friend moved to another country, and I had a little sister. The first person to find out about my hair pulling was my Nanna. We were sat in her room and I decided to mention to her that I seem to have a patch of bald hair. I didn't tell her or anyone that I was pulling it out. Obviously, she freaked out and let my mother know. I was taken to a dermatologist, and he diagnosed me with Alopecia. This doctor literally told my mum that my virtual horse game was stressing me out too much. I was banned from playing it. *sobs*  I was told to use some regrowth shampoo but was prescribed not medication. Around the...

I saved this bath bomb for when I truly needed it the most. For the past few weeks I have been surviving my life instead of living it. Every day I went to work then I came home to  sleep. My mood was constantly bad. For a few days, I thought that I'd have a relapse and break my 34 days streak of not pulling my hair out. But I did relapse. It was only one hair but it broke my streak, and snapped me out of it. I needed to take a break, so I took a day off. Screw the money when my mental health is suffering. On this day off, I finally made use of my Cheer Up Buttercup bath bomb from Lush. The Cheer Up Buttercup is yellow in colour and it displays a few Blue Cornflower petals that float around when this bath bomb is dissolved. I love that they used yellow as a main colour for this bath bomb because yellow really is a happy colour that can cheer you up. If that's not enough to cheer you up, once dissolving the yellow layer of the bath bomb, the pink layer on the...

Hello, welcome to another review that I am posting way too late; thus, it is not fulfilling its purpose on showing you wonderful products that you can buy :) Why do I always get the bad bath bombs? Ectoplasm jelly bath bomb is part of the Halloween range that Lush brought out this year. Unfortunately, I think these are not on sale anymore. However, I am still going to tell you a little bit about it. First thing's first, I love the design of this bath bomb. The larger part of it is a lovely dark purple; however, it has cream round shapes. There is one round shape that is actually a ghost. I think that this makes the bath bomb fit the Halloween and spooky theme. Obviously, the name Ectoplasm also gives this bath bomb a fitting theme for Halloween. The scent held by the Ectoplasm jelly bath bomb is a blend of Grapefruit Oil, Litsea Cubeba Oil, and Tangerine Oil. However, although you expect a very fruity, as soon as I smelled the aroma around me I was reminded of ...

One of the great thing about being in the blogger community is that many bloggers have their own online stores. Most people are not aware of these stores since they're not run by large companies. However, being a part of the blogging community means that I have knowledge about these stores and the treasures that they have for sale. So, I have decided to promote some of these little stores since Christmas is just around the corner, and because they are amazing. Flip through any magazine, and you can find the Horoscope page. Many people take their Horoscope seriously, and many people are simply extremely proud of their zodiac. MYFAIRPIXEL creates Luxury Pen & Ink Illustration Prints of zodiac signs! They are rather inexpensive, and they are shipped worldwide.  MYFAIRPIXEL also creates Abstract Expressionist prints, and other various watercolor prints.  One of my favourite prints that she can offer is the Custom Pet Portrait Luxury Pen & Ink Illustration Print....

Give me the homosexual stories! ( I am not weird, okay? I just love stories between same-sex individuals) Ok, Maybe I am weird.   Carry on is a magical novel written by Rainbow Rowell. Carry On narrates the story of Simon and Baz, and their friends; characters originally found in Rowell's novel 'Fangirl'. Each chapter is in a different character's point of view,  narrating in the first person. If you've read Fangirl then you would know that there are 2 mentioned couples; one in the original Gemma T. Leslie - Simon Snow series and the second couple stems from the imagination of Cath and portrayed in her fanfiction. A debate that I have come across is that Carry On has multiple aspects from Harry Potter, and although I used to disagree upon reading it again, I have to agree that many things are similar to the Harry Potter series. However, although the core element of certain characters seem to be as in Harry Potter, (e.g The Mage and Simon...

Christmas wish lists are something that should be started  at the beginning of each year. Hands up if you spend the whole year wanting something, then forgetting every single thing when people ask you "What do you want for Christmas?" Don't worry, you're not alone. It happens to all of us. This year I have planned my Christmas Wish List from the day one of 2017 by saving all of the links of products that had caught my attention. Many things that I had saved, I have bought for myself. Other things are still waiting to be added to the cart. Holly Bourne Book : It Only Happens In The Movies This year I have fallen in love with the writing of Holly Bourne. After reading her trilogy of Evie, Amber and Lottie, I was delighted that she has a new book released. I know that it will be filled with witty characters and laughter and a whole lot of feels. Niall Horan 'Flicker' Do I need to explain this one? I ALWAYS will support bae. "See ...